| Breaks my heart.......... |
[07 Dec 2006|11:50am] |
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Heading to Tulla to catch a plane to Sydney for a briefing at UTS tomorrow before flying to Vanuatu on Monday for 2 and a half months.
Arriving home Feb 18th '07, starting Uni pretty much immediately. Will be residing in Parkville, on The Avenue. Seeya then. Have good Christmas, new year and all that jazz - eat, drink & be merry, all things in moderation including moderation. In other words; seduce and pash, fall over and vomit, eat til your stomach's distended and uncomfortably large. If that's your thing. Anyway, enjoy.
xx Claire
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| Listening to dance music.......... |
[26 Oct 2006|08:42am] |
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Few things:
I made hummus. Tastes good but way way way to much garlic. Oh the breath.
There is still so, so, so far for feminism to come. Feminism? Even mere decency. So fucking far. Until there are no people who would remotely consider making watching or distributing something so disgusting pathetic sickening as Cunt the Movie, there's still such a huge amount for everyone to learn. Arseholes. Fucking ARSEHOLES.
I went swimming. First exercise since leg op. Really tired and hungry, feels good.
Good luck for English exam tomorrow VCE twelves.
I can walk in a limping lurching fashion and all muscles and bone are becoming more durable. Surgeon didn't give me carte blanche, told me to be careful and not overstretch myself and if suddenly in pain or hear big CRACK! to call him straight away.
Have to do lots of sewing and learn some Bislama and start organisation and packing for Vanuatu. There's a YCA meet-n-eat-n-dance on Sydney Rd on Saturday or Friday night but I'm in the 'bool. And Sam's coming tomorrow! Tops.
Oh yeah, fuck Howard's publicisation (word? Not word?) of environment spending. Vote gathering hey what? Election's just a year away. And it's not even new spending. So cool solar power, uncool geovernment. Fuck them all.
My BCG vacc scar/weeping wound is a big painful hole in my arm. Hurts like hell, and PUS. I can tell you a lot about pus. So charming.
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| Maybe there's something wrong with you....... |
[11 Oct 2006|02:54am] |
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It's a matter of days until I can walk without the damn sticks. Next Thursday I have an appointment with the ortho surgeon and he'll look at my X-rays and miracle! I'll be able to walk.
The other morn I was woken by the doorbell. The door's quite a way from my room so it took me a minute to come conscious then I crutched at speed towards the noise. The ringers impatiently rung again. Gotta love the early-morning Jehova's Witnesses. I was really polite, they wore a lot of determined, serious navy and these determined smiles making determined jokes.
Dad's birthday tomorrow. And Sam's coming back. And I'm going to play with walking a little on the weekend just to make sure I can.
Rereading Kaz Cooke's Real Gorgeous because it's therapeutic and relaxing and amusing.
I made chocolate self-saucing pudding last night. Anne ran half a marathon last weekend with ease.
There's a cool project going on at ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) vaginapagina to provide easily accessible pictures of often-covered and concealed parts of women's bodies (like breasts and vulvas.) Because so many girls spend so much time stressing out over whether they're 'normal'. Fuck me, why isn't sex education in schools a million times more adequate? Why are people too embarrassed to talk about their bodies and other people's? Even parents - and they created their children's bodies with their own. It'd mean an end to an awful lot of shame and anxiety for an awful lot of people. Common sense, guys! It's important.
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| Got the antichrist in the kitchen yelling at me again........ |
[26 Sep 2006|11:11pm] |
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Mmm, not sure why mum stuck a David Hawker Propaganda Postcard Wallcalendar to our corkboard. I guess it's probably for the calendar. Nevermind, I thumbtacked his face, just to make our family stance clear.
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| She shuffles across the floor............ |
[19 Sep 2006|10:56pm] |
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Saw Ross today, talked for almost 4 hours. He's going through pre-exam stress build-up at the moment and wanted to chat about uni options. Practical or passion? Anne's coming home tomorrow for the night, and then coming again with Sam on Friday. And Tegan too maybe, and Molly might be home for some time soon. I'm getting all the people back together.
Right this minute I feel good. The more my leg mends, the more my frustration diminishes.
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[23 Aug 2006|06:08pm] |
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Stuff is going on.
I have an op date. 4th September at Epworth hospital, Melbourne. I'll be in for about 6 days, then home on crutches for 6 weeks and monitoring recovery for another 6. Yeah this is real cool, I can't get to New Zealand anymore, I won't be fit for Rosco's 18th and I can't play hockey finals with Brunswick or Warrnambool. But I guess at least I have a decided date.
Sam, Anne, Molly all came home on weekend. Was nice was great was awesome, so much so that I decided to go back to Melb for a couple of days so I could keep hanging round 'em all. Got to spend time with Sam lots which was cool cool fun (as always,) slept at Molly's so got to play with her, and hung out with Anne on Monday. Saw Stefanovitch and his new girl, Jess at uni yesterday, also loads of freak stereotypes I didn't get it. Also say 2:37 at new old Westgarth theatre, was the only one in the cinema so kicked off shoes and knitted, lovely fun. Going back on Friday to play hockey and stay weekend with Sam. His friend Gav is coming down from Canberra so we have to play and have fun.
Got all my Youth Challenge stuff. Apparently in Vanuatu I have to wear a skirt ALL THE TIME. Fucking hell. And have to not get malaria. And there's lots of deadlines I have to meet. Suddenly I have large amounts of stuff to do. One of them is learn Bislama, which is pidgin Vanuatu style. Looking forward to being able to speak.
Also promised Em I'd head up to see Jarna in Brisbane with her on a weekend soon for a break, cos she's working real hard. Given that she finishes nursing placement this Friday, and my operation is Monday week it's going to have to be the weekend of the 2nd n 3rd, leaving Thursday returning probably Saturday night. It'll be lovely fun and pretty good for Em's poor head, just have to get organised (Jarn, we'll ring you soon.) Blargh, things suddenly seem to be stressful and demanding. Also have to get first-aid certificate for YC and prove that I can swim 200m before getting my leg cut up - it's not a problem, except for organising it all.
Basically content but I think I'm being post-n-pre-emptively compensated for all the free time I've been having and all that I will have after operation. Mmm xx
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| Can you show me where it hurts? |
[07 Aug 2006|09:20pm] |
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Hey kids, just so you know I'm back in the 'bool for the time being. Lots of stuff has happened or gone down or whatever you say. Nothing terrible bad, some good, some indifferent. I'm a bit indifferent ambivalent whatever. Whatever haha.
( Stuff ambivalence. )
Cool. All up to date. Whatever xx
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| I see your breath hanging there............ |
[08 Jun 2006|09:46am] |
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Went back to Warrnambool last weekend for rustication, rest, recuperation n all those relaxing r words. It was nice to sleep in, eat mum food n be in my natural habitat for a little while. Home is comfort, and it'd been a tough week. Sam was away in Orange (NSW) too, so it was a good weekend to go away. This week has been a little less tough, though it's not over. I was writing stuff down last night (organising my brain,) realising that lot of the things I feel negative about (with people, friends, community involvement, tiredness, health, disorganisation) are based on guilt. In fact pretty much all of them are - for not being there enough or not doing enough to help or not being involved or looking after or organising or comforting or supporting or or awake enough to do anything useful at all. Bit weird because I feel guilty for letting other people down but also for letting myself down by not caring for myself properly. And I can't do it all.
But regardless, things are pretty OK. There's lots of good things around; hockey, Anne, the babies, Sam, peppermint tea, fresh pasta, Preston Market, Molly, getting fit, knitting, Em (coming to visit this weekend,) dark chocolate, nashis, comfy socks, History of Western Philosophy (stop brain rot), newspapers (though the news isn't good,) Tegan, eggs, saving money, Georgie (saw her on weekend - joy in big sunnies.)
Daine and Trev are visiting mum and dad in Warrnie for the weekend - wish I could be in two places at once, because staying with them was so lovely. (Northcote near Westgarth, Urqhart St) and they're cool. And Em's coming up to visit, because men's Country Week hockey is on, and she'll stay with Gab but playing with me some and we'll watch some hockey at the State Centre.
Saw Somersault on the weekend and it's gorgeous - one of my favorite Aussie movies.
My knitting's cool. Only started on the weekend, mama taught me how to cast-on and I went from there. S'only a scarf in chocolate brown with cream stripes but it's growing fast and I'm excited. I want it long long long, probably be finished by the start of summer. Pfft.
Spending lots of time with Sam and it's good. I'm not sure that his work is so fantastic for him, but otherwise he's OK. He and Chloe went back to the farm n I think they had fun. It's just always good to see him, it's nice to have someone who is always happy to see me and who makes me feel good whenever he's around nearby. I'm glad I know him, he's made this six months a lot better. This weekend maybe we'll go to Ballarat or somewhere else driving away from the city. I have Queen's Birthday off! Yesssssss!
My hair's grown lots!
(Howard has fucked up conservative disgusting prejudices bout gay marriage and has anyone noticed the amount of people the IR laws have fucked over already? BLARGH.)
xx
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| Something else.... |
[29 May 2006|10:07am] |
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Hey hey kids, how's life?
To me it seems busy, tiring. But basically satisfying. I saw Annie for the first time in a couple of weeks on Wednesday, and Mol and Joe for first time in ages and ages (weeks and months respectively) on Friday. It was good but bad that I hadn't seen 'em but good. Last week sucked - I was at work til 10.30 n 11pm two of five nights, starting tween 6.45am n 7 and total something like 45 hours. Sorry to complain, enough of that. Spent Saturday with Sam and slept all day, went to Thai Nee for tea, and Sunday slept and played hockey (State Centre, Brunny 'gainst Baw-Baw, we won 3-1, scored one,) slept more and ate awesome roast chicken Sam n Chloe's. They're heading back to Orange this Wed-Sunday, and I'm going to Warrnie for the weekend for some rest, might take off on Friday night. I don't know.
Things are kinda businesslike and uninspiring at the moment, I have three more weeks of this roster, then a week of super-hell-Vix-on-nightshifts, then a bit of a break. Upside is earning large amounts of money, and the kids are hard but relatively rewarding work (I love them LOADS.) So it's all ok. Hopefully more exciting news next time. Love xx
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| I'm going to Jackson....... |
[13 May 2006|07:19pm] |
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I'm bald, I'm home, I'm tired, I'm happy, I'm working more, I'm feeling good. I have a #2 with a week's regrowth, I have a real cool pair of hockey coaches, I have The Age Cheap Eats and intentions, I have early morning starts this week and a 13 hour Monday (complete with 4yo violin concert madness,) I have Alain De Botton's Art of Travel and Haigh's ginger bars for mum, I have to frock up soon for dinner with famjamily, I have little time and so many people to play with. I am unproductive in a wide sense, but relatively productive in a personal and communal small-size way (I'm trying,) I love spending time with people (particularly Sam, the DeCarlers n all the other fab friends) but it's so hard to keep the rounds going - driving walking talking eating eating eating (exploding) - I'm only getting Molly doses once a week (that's serious) and Anne twice if lucky. But we're going to live together next year in one glorious flat-hold ('hole' perhaps more accurate). I am talking about myself a lot. I'm fine, Sam's just good, Anne struggles but manages happy, Molly is good if occasionally irritated by surrounding people, Tegan seems joyful though sometimes not but is in a good place, Joe I worry about, Rosco's wrestling the VCE with a head that looks like mine, Tom's locks are far wilder he's OK, Anth n Vicki go back on long hours regular work schedule next week - bad for depressive tendencies. Mum and Dad seem pretty relaxed. The world's in order today. Don't know what will happen next, we'll see. xx Bear
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| Nothing really matters at all... |
[01 May 2006|09:51am] |
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Hey hey. Lots of things are going on around me and behind me and past me and I'm not catching up with them so fast.
Joined Brunswick hockey club, unsure about the standard of play of the grade I'm in - it won't help me improve my game. Thinking of talking to coach Craig to see whether I could play any higher. Don't want to get bored. But I can't see him this week cos I have to work both Thurs and Tuesday evenings which are training nights from 7-8. Thinking of trying out for U21 States in a month, if I get the app in in time. Not that I'll get anywhere, but Em needs a tryout buddy.
Went down to Warrnie this weekend to play for our women's n men's teams - won womens lost mens. That was Saturday, and Sunday drove home 'n' then to (stupid) Werribee for Brunny game, which we killed 10-0. Boring boring, Was nice to see mama et papa and Em and Lyn and Rosy and Georgie and Dave Kane and Tom and others while at home, had dessert at the Warrnambool Saturday night with Em, and hot chocs. Saw Kellovely and Simon - both a bit cool to chat to, And wonderful to have proper chat with Em cos I miss her quite a bit. We went on to the Seanchai cos Chris was there with his girlfriend (who I was curious about, she seems nice) and Em and I danced with abandon. Flailed all over the floor - there was noone else dancing but we made one friend; a guy who could flail with the best. And Heath turned up (triple tipsy) and danced as well. Fun. Didn't get much sleep, and drove back to the metrop next morning, needing powernaps and coffee en route. And Sam came over last night - s'always good to see him.
I'm Shaving for a Cure this coming Friday evening. All off, to #2. Exciting, no? Teg and Molly will help and then we might just go out dancing and drinking of a while because I maybe might need it. Any spectators welcome - it'll be at De Carle St. I've raised some cash, people are generous and kind. Last night out with hair will probably be this Wednesday, Medley Ball. Maybe hopefully fun. Have to get money to Molly. Also have to go play at Mannix and Deakin sometime soon. And take Sam and Anne to Preston Market sometime. And get back into a normalised work schedule, hopefully earning a bit more cash (need it.)
I've applied with an aid organisation connected to AVI to go maybe to India, maybe Costa Rica maybe Guatamala. Haven't heard back yet, there'll be interviews and info days. Hoping to get word soon.
Went to the Endo for diabetes checkup. My sugars aren't so good at the moment and he has less sense of humour than my old paediatrician which is a bummer. But I'm monitoring myself and trying to improve things. Gonna start writing numbers down again. Also have appointment with back and leg man Ian Torode at end of May, he's going to tell me if and when he can cut into my leg and take bone out. Hope all ok. We'll see.
There's lots going on but I'm feeling a little useless, not accomplishing a whole lot. Anyway, I'm kind of in limbo and things will atart moving soon. xx love, Bear
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| Poetry has no place for a heart that's a whore...... |
[03 Apr 2006|12:40am] |
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Hey, life is OK-Ok-ok n stuff. Saturday I made Teg a massive birthday cake with blocks of chocolate and butter and a tub of cream in the frosting ALONE. That was pretty exciting. Sam helped.
Sam is good. Just generally that's a fact.
Anne borrowed my car for the weekend to go home. She got back last night to Preston 15 mins after I wanted to go to bed and I had to drive her home because Preston station isn't a nice place for a little blonde girl to hang after dark. So in prep for my 15 hour Monday start to a fucker of a week I got a nice 7 hours sleep which is nowhere near enough. Wasn't very happy at all. feeling really good now too. Joy.
MOl and I have been misunderstanding and not seeing each other enough but we're sorting ourselves out with determination. Real joy (no irony.)
Went to Nagambie yesterday to Paul & Di's farm - practising sustainable farming and it's interesting - for their daughter Tilly Claire's dedication. She's 7 or 8 months old, gorgeous brown eyes. There were kids everywhere and it was a fun day.. but so tiring. I drove parts of the way back and was stuffed at finish.
Anne and I are driving home to Warrnie for four days over Easter. Also taking Anne's Will. Also some De Carle streeters and I are taking Miles (Teg's British flatmate) camping to see real Aussie stars out of the city. Should be fun.
I have some other plans - mostly to do with making Dr's appointments and joining libraries and hockey clubs. Way exciting. Oh and I ran out of insulin this morning wooo. xx
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| His hat is a funny shape, his heart is a brick... |
[23 Mar 2006|10:02pm] |
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Hey kids, I'm a bit tired these days and this isn't often on top of my priority list. Not deleting it, just don't leave me urgent messages here please. If you wanna be in touch email me please unripe_rhubarb at hotmail 'n' I'll give you a mobile number. Most friends already have it. Some internet people I want to pursue for friendship; I most likely have already taken your numbers. I live in Preston now and sometimes look for good things to do on weekends. Have fun, heaps love, Bear xx
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| Vehement romantic, frantic............. |
[13 Mar 2006|12:30am] |
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Still alive. Barely awake but functioning.
Work is good, kids are cool, Angus is a gorgeous-most-gorgeous prettier-than-your-baby not-quite-cherub. Niamh and Pat are cool kids. Hard work but worth it, good people, Anthony and Vicki are lovely.
House is OK. Room is good. Living in Preston, right near market and train station. Housemate situation is somewhat interesting or bizarre. Near work, near Teg's place and Sam & Chloe's, I spend a lot of time at the block in De Carle St.
Worked making coffee at Folkie this weekend. The festival finishes tomorrow. Awesome fun, said stupid things to customers, worked with George and Tom and the Brady family (Tim and Carmel bosses and lovely people, and Ben 11yrs and allround cool kid.) Sam came too so got to hang out with him in lunch and tea breaks and that's goodfun. Drank with Sam and Georgie last night in the Guiness Tent, and sang and danced along with the massivefun Beatles Singalong, slept at Georgie's, I like her house. Awesome lineup at the festival this year but I didn't see much unfortunately. Sam did, had fun.
Work is hard, I seem to be rushing throught life in these months, I need to slow down and remember Jack's good advice. And enjoy it all. Love love & love, Bear.
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| Let the new shit begin....... |
[18 Feb 2006|01:52pm] |
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Hey there team.
My new living circumstances are good. Melbourne with my friends is a good place to be. Anne is now back at Hilda's, Molly at Medley and it's wonderful wonderful to see them both every day. I'm still at the flat, but am moving to Preston next weekend (25th & 26th Feb) to Lee's place. Lee is nice, I met her a little while ago. Was also at Tegan's new apartment on Thursday night, beautiful to see her again, met all her neighbours. All are nice, some are lovely. There's Sam and Chloe on one side, siblings, I think Sam and I are going somewhere to drink tea this week, and maybe we'll proceed from there because I like his greenhazelbrown eyes and his kindness.
Buuuuuuuuut there's also a boy called Simon - ex-housemate of Bill's (Molly's big brother) since they got evicted on Wednesday. I probably won't be seeing him anytime soon though. He's fun and blonde and stuff.
Anyway, boys boys chasing boys.. what a conundrum.
My children are gorgeous. Angus, the 1-year-old is a blonde-blue-eyed sunshine baby. I live to make him smile. Niamh, 4, has brown eyes that crinkle when she laughs and a little bit of middle-child-syndrome, Patrick, 7, is cool and reads a lot and leads the other two because he's their big brother. They are gorgeous great kids, I love them. Vicki and Anthony are awesome employers.
I'm back in Warrnie for the weekend, had to do a coffee-making revision session with Tim at Relay for Life this morning. Then went into town to do errands and saw Jack Howard and a friend of his at Fishtails and chatted for about 2.5 hours. Nice nice.. interesting things to hear.
Anyway, heading back tomorrow. Really tired from Tegan's the other night - I only got about an hour's sleep. Life is good. Love, Bear xx
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| People who think they can....... |
[02 Feb 2006|06:11pm] |
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Hey hey hey! I scored my P plates today in a tense twenty minutes behind the wheel, including one stall (shame!), various correct manouvers and one lovely angle-park (yess! No three-pointers.) So, being licensed, I went and drove Molly on adventures all afternoon and had fun. Tonight Heather's coming to go fishing and maybe Molly, but probably not the Lannies although I did invite 'em.
I move to Carlton on Saturday, to stay for about 3 weeks before moving on to Preston. I like the place I'll be living (very close to the Woodwards' place, Preston market and train station) and the kids I'll be looking after (Niamh has an awesome laughing-brown-eyed-blondie 4-year-old sense of humour, Patrick is more serious, in a brown-eyed-brown-haired teaching me how to play Pokemon way. Angus is a teddy bear.) It only remains to be seen whether the housemates are nice. There's Lee, female, owner, works for Dept. of Human Services, Paul, new housemate, primary school teacher and Bernard, quiet, keeps to himself, no more information. I start work at 7.15am Monday morning.
I haven't yet begun to pack.
Tomorrow Molly and Em and I are going out to the Warrnambool for tea (nice restaurant, not pub part) and then having a nice big goodbye-night. Molly moves to Melbourne on Thursday of next week.
Last night Mol and Joe and I had a big long chat and laze at Molly's, before she and I went out (s'ok, didn't drink and retired at 12.30 so I wouldn't be tired for driving.) It was good. Joseph drove us in the now-refurbished van (since last time, after he'd dropped us home, the accelerator pedal got stuck to the floor and he took 500 dangerous metres to handbreak, break and gearstick his way to a stop at the side of the road. Scary.) It even has seat covers. Woooooo.
Oh yeah and Big Day Out was ok-fun. White Stripes put on an awesome show, I got nice and close. Sarah Blasko was great - love the voice and the crazy dancing (almost interpretive), also had fun at Augie March's (lamentably short) set. Stooges were fun too, Iggy is a crazy crazy crazy showpony fucker (cool.) I didn't get so sunburnt, and saw a few people I knew, so it was all good. Stayed in the flat, which is 2 minutes walk away.
I've got a new bank account, ABN, debit card, license and I'm about to type an invoice-template so that I have one. Busy busy scary but good.
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| I'm thinkin' bout my doorbell........... |
[26 Jan 2006|09:44pm] |
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Hey hey hey. Things are beginning to be sorted, miraculous miraculous luck. I think I have a place to live. In Preston (mergh, not sure about location, but all other bits are great) cheapish rent, with a good friend of Vicki's. Split electricity/water bills, own phone stuff, own food (good.) Up the road from the children's godparents who are a couple. There is an offer of a mum's group to go to with Angus (the baby) on Wednesday mornings (with good coffee) where I might pick up a few tips on stuff and stuff.
Today was Australia Day! Woooooo patriotism hey yeah cool sure. Today was 40-degrees-in-the-shade kinda hot (know that song?) Anne and I were going to beach. Mol too, then mum wanted to come and so did Joe. So all to beach complete with baking baking sun and cold water, fun and sunburn. We had three swims, and dried off fast in the oven-wind. Then others went home, Dad visited for a swim and after a detour for drink, credit, cherries, chocolate, mango, Molly and I went to Port Fairy in Joe's van listening to the countdown on JJJ. Then for fish & chips, water, orangensaft in Port (minus fish) then to beach just out of town with big glass waves, barrels and fun to eat and continue listening to Hottest 100, counting down and abusing the choices (sometimes.) Then more swim, heaps of fun trying to teach Molly to bodysurf and being sunburnt and judging handstands. Long swim. Then Joseph drove both of us home, but me first (last night Anne stole Molly's shoes - necessity) and at mine we had cups of tea, chocolate peanuts, sweet chilli phillycheese and other afternoon food and listened to the final countdown (not the Final Countdown) to #1... disgusted that Ben Lee was #2, but pleased by Wish You Well at 1 because I like it. Bye Joseph and Molly.. they drove away in the massive (messy) van.
My driving test is Thursday, hazard test is Wednesday (Frank is a strange sort of angel.) I'm heading up to Big Day Out Saturday/Sunday/Monday and meeting with the Woodwards and all three kids Monday, hopefully making the 12.20 train afterwards so I can have a driving lesson at 7pm. ARGH (exciting.)
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| My sweet, how incomplete we are......... |
[24 Jan 2006|12:07am] |
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So.
So.
So I start on Feb 6th, or as close to that as I can manage.
I still have nowhere to live. That's only two weeks away. I have a driving lesson tomorrow and a driving teacher who has taken test-booking and all annoying details out of my little steering-wheeled hands, and is taking care of them (awesome Frank.) He thinks he should be able to get me to license-standard before Feb 6th, I think possibly he should too. I am a little scared of killing all the children in my first couple of weeks on the way to school.
I STILL HAVE NOWHERE TO LIVE.
Perhaps you can tell, but things are moving a little fast here in the windy city (that's Warrnambool) and I'm freaking out just a little. Two weeks and I'll be full-time-responsible for three kids. Fucking hell. This house/room/accommodation thing is the worst because it seems not to be getting resolved. I'm looking in Carlton, Thornbury, Northcote, Fitzroy - because the house is in Thornbury, end of Lygon and a couple of turns, about 7km from the Women's (hospital).
All the uni kids are heading off around the same time, most are living on res - Molly's probably at Medley Hall, Nath and Chris are at Deakin res, Bec's at UC, I can't remember whether Clare's deferring or starting - if so, she's at UC, Ed's at Mannix. Joe and Ella are in houses of different natures. Anne's still at Hilda's of course. That about covers the people I think I could live with.
Anyway, yeah. Suggestions welcome (just don't be offended if I don't necessarily want to take them automatically. xx) I'm a little scared. I believe that if I can survive the first three weeks, I'll survive the 6 months. If I don't, I crash and burn. Optimism.
Oh speaking of which, Stefan's coming to visit, tomorrow, on the train. He lives at ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) blinvisible.
Once I am settled, and settled into the job, I want people to see and places to go. There are causes I want to get involved in and people to be friends with so, so long as you are fun, tell me if you want to play, and I've got weekends off (it's possible I'll take awhile to get acclimatised to 6am starts. So again, don't be offended if I say no, or go to sleep instead.) Love, Bear xx
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| I'm learning how to say hello without too much trouble....... |
[19 Jan 2006|09:15pm] |
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There's been quite a lot going on recently.
Yeah yeah Uni offers nice. Only organising deferral and accepting and paperwork is a pain in the neck and my package of papers only arrived tonight and I spent several hours on the computer before it came trying to work out all the stuff that was just IN the package anyway.
Buuuuuuuut from friend Beccy I heard the cool news that she somehow got a Melbourne Access scholarship, and now has a HECS exempt place for 4 years with $2000 gratis for her own personal use each year. I'm super envious and so very super glad. She just messaged me today, I'm proud.
Then there's my new job with the Woodwards, Vicky and Anthony. They're a family with three kids, Angus is under 1yr, Niamh 4yr, Patrick 7yr. I'm their nanny for the first 6 months of this year. They're living in Thornbury, moving from Warrnie soon, which means that in the next four weeks I have to find somewhere to live nearby in Carlton and get my driver's license so I can take the kids to school. I'll start at about 6am each morning, go til 6pm or about then in the evening. All weekends off, somedays one parent will finish at 2pm. Well paid; maybe I'll score my AusStudy amount somehow. And I'll be in Melbourne, where all the friends will be, not Warrnambool with my family and wonderful people I planned to be friends with, but also without its restrictive society and slightly mental atmosphere. I'm a little ambivalent but I think it's good to get out. The job is certainly a positive. I'm perhaps also a little scared; it's responsibility.
Also, luckily now my license isn't going to be suspended. It was, because of some stupid medical form and irrational concern about my diabetic eyes, but Vicroads and I sorted it between us. Stupid annoyance.
I bought Eels Blinking Lights and other revelations. the other day and it was a good decision, I'm enjoying it a lot. Dance think sing reflect consider link enjoy etc.
Went to Chris' the other night, for celebrations about uni offers, just drinks with the schoolkids. It was gorgeous and relaxed; out on the porch in the swing chair with a glass of champagne and lots of friends with interesting things to say. Some good champagne too, lovely stuff. I had nice chats with Ed and Chris and Em and Bec, and left with half a bottle in my hand (luck! In my impoverished state, anyway.) And Em lifted me to Molly's, where she and Joe were and we proceeded to play and drink Omni, tequila, vermouth (not together, variously mixed or with salt and lemon) then to walk to Will's. We tapped on his window and called his name, but to no avail. So we took off his fly screen, somehow opened the window and Mol climbed in to annoy him into coming. Our gain, his loss of beauty sleep. We had a mental night of chat and ridiculousness, and all piled into Molly's bed about 6am. Next morning we dragged unnaked Molly out of the other bed she'd migrated to, at 10am to go for Fishtails coffee. Unfortunately neither James nor Nick were there.
Did I mention I met a nice boy friend-of-Molly's called Nick? I don't think anything more will happen (anticipate disappointment), but he's still interesting. And tall. And attractive.
So I'm having a good, though slightly anxious-busy-interesting-mental time of a summer. And it's a proper summer, this is what a summer should be.
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Party is over yes. Picnic was yesterday and great because people arrived in the afternoon and ate a lot of food, drank champagne, chatted and got along with each other in the sun and the shade and a pleasant temperature. Tom and Ross played music, and Dad played music. Under slight duress I played Thomas' bongo (non-plural, he only has one.) Joe made me a button, a really big one, diameter maybe 12cm out of resin in his room, his room smells now. I'm going to make a red cord jacket and use it. Anyway, I had an awesome time, because that is how I like to relax with the best people all around me. (Thankyou love to everyone who came.)
Today is sweet Anne's birthday. She's old and 20.
Since 'gaining my majority', Molly and I have been on a few adventures. It's nice to be without anxiety about identification and be able to dance. Anne came out with us too, on Wendesday and everyone had a pretty exciting night (to say the least.) I had fun. And Saturday. Also next weekend should be good.
Tegan's going away soon, but it will be better for her, so it's a positive thing. Molly, Joe, Anne, Clare, Bec, Ross, Nath, Chris, Muzz and lots of others go away in a month.. leaving me here. I feel this will be an interesting test.
But today I was talking to a nice boy called Jack Howard, who wants to be friends and is one of those gorgeous people. So I'm going to be friends with him, and Sinthijuan and maybe Heather (I don't know if Heather's staying or going, Nath?) and Emily and Georgie if she's here. Small and select :)
I bought a book with lots of beautiful pictures of people, when I look at it I want to see more of the world, so I think it's quite a good thing to have. Mind you it is a product of the big crazy cliched Lonely Planet company. Nevermind.
( Joy; now also available as a meme. )
P.S. Good luck for Uni placements guys.
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